The fencing around the veggie garden complete...

Wow over a Month since my last post seemingly a tell-tale of my life over the last 4-6 weeks. Well I’ve been reinspired by the Blue deck lounge and a couple of cows and perhaps a drink or two, I’ve picked myself up, dusted myself off and gave myself an uppercut.
This last phase has been absolutely nothing short of an eventful existence in life, both good and the bad variety. I’ve been to Sydney working, finished another couple of farm projects, enjoyed some long-awaited farm rain, managed to move our city house, to being at war with everyone that is close to me in my life, most anyway. They say life can be determined and filled into two aspects a yin and a yang, black or white, there are no relativity in-betweens and for a peaceful existence you are to follow this path for a balanced life. I’m starting to believe that clearly Confucius never really lived a full life he never had kids and he certainly didn’t own a farm and let me add he most certainly never worked a fulltime job during it all. Not to mention that between the black and white there is a rainbow of exuberant colours, I used the word exuberant for the emphasis of colours, perhaps I should have just put it in rabbit ears, or just said farking colours….
Red-Anger, Blue- “Blue”, Yellow-Let down, Orange-Confused, Green-Worn out, Indigo-Happy, Violet-Contentment and then there is your bloody Black and White and now let’s throw in Grey for good measure, to balance it off. Life can be tough sometimes and one retaliative theorists of a proclaimed balance of life is Murphy’s Law now this I am starting to believe in, this is true, this is founded, it’s been myth busted only I didn’t need two scientists or a laboratory to confirm this.
Where is this all leading to? I don’t really know perhaps its an explanation to myself of where I have been these past 4-6 weeks. Sure, life is not all beer and skittles they say – who would have farking beer with skittles anyway, not me – another self-proclaimed life theorist throwing out another Idiom into the world. What is the balance of life? – What is eternal fulfilment? the most frustrating thing in life and it’s not until recent that I have come to realise, is that in your life the balance is held by outside forces as well, other people. Yeh, yeh - you hold your own destiny in your own hands, you choose your own paths you can also choose to cut the negativity out of your life but sometimes you never get to own the circumstance. In that balance you hold up one side of it, your relationship, kids and job hold up the other and in between you have circumstance jumping like a farking monkey side to side, sure you get to unbalance or balance your side of it with attitude, the things you do right and wrong which no doubt in theory balances out the other side, mostly – but what about the monkey?
Yes, there are days I feel like checking out, the days you feel like you’ve just lived enough of life, the days you feel like you’ve done everything, you’ve lived your life - whether it’s been with or without fulfilment becomes irrelevant because it is without care of that anymore. And now I know everyone feels like this from time to time it’s just how you tend to personally deal with the anxiety of it all – you have to keep searching for the positives and the next moment and sometimes that positive or moment is in people.
Again, so where is this leading to? I’ve really had to deal with a lot of shite this last 4-6 weeks and I’m hoping that in the next 4-6 weeks I manage to drop that “monkey” from my back or at the very least learn to tame him some more.